Another and Shadow

Aerin: That feeling… Who is this? Shadow? No. It isn’t the same feeling...
Another: I am not that shadow. I am another shadow.
*Shadow appears*
Aerin: Shadow, please go away. I’m struggling with Another now.
Shadow: Go away? My dear, you’ve just called me.
Aerin: Just please! I can’t handle the two of you at the same time!


Re-draw from the first half of 2016.

As if having Shadow wasn’t enough, Another came to pay me a visit too. It could stay for a day, for a week, for a month… But it sometimes left me alone. Except I was not alone. Shadow was always clinging to me. Telling me about my mistakes. Lying to me. Telling me things like how silly, worthless, and weak I was. When Another came, I had to deal with its talking too. Another likes to guess the worst outcome possible, even if it’s not likely to ever happen. It also reminded me of all the things I had to do, of how I wasn’t doing them, and of how everything would go endlessly wrong if I didn’t do them. And I wasn’t doing them, and things would be wrong. The two shadows blamed me for doing nothing, but drained all the energy to prevent me doing anything. It was a vicious cycle.

A bit more than a year has passed and I think I’m doing fairly well, considering. I’ve went through a lot of changes and self-understanding during the last year. Glad and proud to say it has paid off (and thank you so, so much to people who helped ), even if there are times when it feels like nothing has changed at all. I’m still learning to manage those beasts once they’re awake.  

To those who can relate, I don’t know whether this will help or not, but for what it’s worth… You’re not alone. Fighting back it’s not easy. You’re stronger that you can realize just by being here. Don’t give up. There’s people who cares. You’ll find your way.




Hope you like it!! ^^